Posts in Emo
πŸ’Œ Some Words of Encouragement πŸ‘‹πŸ»

For anyone that is struggling right now,

Here are some words of encouragement from someone who loves you:


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mumbling thru [monday].

When I arrived at work (which today, was care-taking for an 84 year old man), I was given a good ol’ dose of reality: β€œto stop wasting my life away.” 

Thank You, M.

Like many of us, there have definitely been times in my life where I’ve heard older people say things like β€œEnjoy your youth while you have it!” and I’ve thought to myself β€œOh goodness that’s annoying…”*let me chug this bottle of wine and enjoy my youth*…” Today was not one of those days.

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I just want to give [up].

Firstly, I just want to say: I love you all. 

Secondly, this past month has been exhausting, and WAY too many things have gone wrong. 

And thirdly,

I just want to give [up]. 

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Thank Goodness for Music.

I will say that I was definitely ready for a fresh start this week. After all the drama last weekend with the Orlando Massacre, it was pretty difficult for me to stay focused. Really, 'Tis a great reminder to breathe and enjoy life more, but sometimes it just SUCKS to not be happy.... To have wanted to do one thing, but get stuck spending your time on something else...


Something that always helps me get through these difficult times, is music. And so [ before I leave for work ] I will leave you with the music that got me through last week. 'Tis is a treble heavy mix of some songs that are sure to get you out of a funk. 

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Dealing with Grief

TBH, this week has been rough [ for a lot of reasons ]. Thankfully, there has been so many beautiful last minute events that have come together to celebrate love and acceptance. And truly, I am in awe of the support the LGBTQQAA+ community has shown each other. πŸ’™βœ¨πŸ™ŒπŸ»πŸ‘±πŸ»

That being said...

One has to ask them-self: Why doesn't this happen all the time?

Why do people always sing and support each other AFTER something bad happens. πŸ’‘βœ¨πŸ€”

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Thank Goodness #ANTMisBack

OMG, Did you see?! Vh1 has finally announced that they are casting for the newest season of America's Next Top Model! And Naturally, I applied. βœ¨πŸ™†

I remember in middle school, my friend Emily and I would run home to catch the show every week and talk for hours trying to think of new ways to approach each challenge. [ Which of course was always followed by an impromptu photoshoot. ] I've always known that I would be perfect for the show. In fact, I applied for ANTM Cycle 20, and even though I didn't make the cut the first time, I was lucky enough to receive an email encouraging me to apply again the next year [ assuming everyone didn't get that email… ] though little did I know, the following year was when I realized that I had a 5 millimeter hole in my femur... πŸ™Š

[ Oh Right, that happened... ]

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Highs and Lows.

I mean, something must be in retrograde right now, because I just feel as though everything is super difficult to accomplish. For instance, when I was doing the laundry last night it just haddd to be when my building's hot water heater was out of order. So, I literally had to do some of the wash twice. And then later, I made that same mistake with the dishes... ... it's hard not to get frustrated.

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Oh, Hello Love.

The party? The Hello Mr. Valentine's Day soirΓ©e titled:  Hello Love.

The venue? Verboten [ which literally just kept reminding me of Rasputent from Anastasia, so clearly we went home and netflix and chilled to that afterwards... ]: A warehouse style space complete with a giant disco ball in the center of the dance floor, and of course, an instagram-worthy photo booth area with an epic designed floral display by Keeping up with the Putnams.

The evening? Amazeballs. β£

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A Happy Friday

Lately, I've been having trouble getting started ( which you'll read more about later... ) and am often faced with becoming super energized and creative at ohhhh around midnight or so (go figure). So, I've just decided to go with it. I mean, if I'm having trouble sleeping because I have a melody for a song stuck in my head, shouldn't I just get up and write the dang song?!


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One Year Surgiversary

Today marks a pretty important day that I truly cannot believe is already upon us:  Today ( January 13th ) marks the

one year anniversary!

of my Knee Surgery. So, since it's the question that EVERYONE feels the need to ask me: "You're like all better now, right?" No. Not at all. 

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OH Hello 2016...

To be Honest, I feel like I have a lot of thoughts going on in my head right now... with today being the first Monday of 2016, it feels as if I must start things off to a good start or it'll knock the whole year off kilter... because you know, that's how life works right? [ Oh wait... ]

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Coffee Thoughts

Well I just completely burned my tongue on my Starbucks reward beverage ( today, a triple tall 1 pump toffee nut soy latte. obvi with a sprinkle of cinnamon ) … and I am just realizing I forgot headphones... Awesome.

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Darkness Series : Oh Mondays...

When I'm on my own on those days where I don't feel my best, I often have a hard time getting started. And after spending almost 4 months after my knee surgery cooped up in my apartment... Let me tell you:

Depression is real.

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LOOK UP WITH EOIN :: Let's Be Real


I was a little bit nervous in posting this week's video because it's MUCH less edited than I had originally intended it to be... but in thinking back to my last post, it felt as if the timing couldn't be more appropriate.

Over this past weekend, I spent some time in DC for the Human Rights Campaign #NationalDinner and got to meet some pretty awesome besties. But [like usual] when something goes well... something must also go terribly wrong... Watch, as you see my real reaction to when I sat down at the computer the other day. 

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New Music Monday - PLOTW #18


A compilation of some of my new favorite music:

( all of which I have undoubtedly had on repeat for most of this past week. So please, ENJOY! :D )

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Back in New York :: ALL OR NOTHING.

P.S. I'm back in New York!

(as if you know i left...)

I have been on vacation for the past two weeks [ hence why I didn't post anything for the past couple weeks... I'll get better at this I swear. πŸ˜œ] and am definitely having the feels being back in New York again...

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Oh my goodness, it's been 17 days since my last [blog post] and I have no good excuse for it. Just sitting down to write has just been too freaking difficult to do right now, and I am glad to be hopping back on the bandwagon again. 

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The Day I Lost My iPhone

You know, just a sensible little bike ride with some lovely music coming from my bag in the front of the bike.


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Knee Surgery Update : Day #155

I am just so happy right now that I'm having a difficult time processing my feelings into words. I just got home a little bit ago from my first post-surgery dance class ...

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Just Keep Smiling.