🍹 Friday Night In. πŸ™†πŸΌβ€β™‚οΈ

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It’s currently Friday night, and I am SO glad to be laying in bed in sweatpants listening to podcasts.

☺️✨ #FRIDAY

FEELS

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πŸ†˜ S.O.S. πŸ’Œ

πŸ†˜βœ¨πŸ™‰ That’s right, Cher just released a music video for her cover of the song β€œS.O.S.” made popular by ABBA in 1975. It was directed by the music video King Jake Wilson, Styled by William Graper, and gurl, its gonna go down in herstory.

So, grab some tea. Watch the video. Play it again. Click all the ads, and let’s talk about how βœ¨πŸ‘ AMAZING βœ¨πŸ‘ this βœ¨πŸ‘video βœ¨πŸ‘ is. βœ¨πŸ‘

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πŸ’Œ Some Words of Encouragement πŸ‘‹πŸ»

For anyone that is struggling right now,

Here are some words of encouragement from someone who loves you:

I BELIEVE IN YOU.

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mumbling thru [monday].

When I arrived at work (which today, was care-taking for an 84 year old man), I was given a good ol’ dose of reality: β€œto stop wasting my life away.” 

Thank You, M.

Like many of us, there have definitely been times in my life where I’ve heard older people say things like β€œEnjoy your youth while you have it!” and I’ve thought to myself β€œOh goodness that’s annoying…”*let me chug this bottle of wine and enjoy my youth*…” Today was not one of those days.

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Practicing not being perfect.

For me, perfection means: completing highly difficult or skillful tasks with ease, joy and consistency.

I say all of this, because I don’t feel perfect. I don’t feel free, joyful, or complete. I just feel as if I’d rather not start working on something if I can’t finish it to this magical expectation I have for myself. βœ¨πŸ™‰

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Starting from [scratch].

One of the most amazing things about living in California is that things move just a tad bit slower here. 

Perhaps because the city is a bit more spread out? Perhaps because more people are stoned all the time? Most likely, because just "happening to run into someone on the street" happens much less often here (and I kind of love it).

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I just want to give [up].

Firstly, I just want to say: I love you all. 

Secondly, this past month has been exhausting, and WAY too many things have gone wrong. 

And thirdly,

I just want to give [up]. 

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Thank Goodness for Music.

I will say that I was definitely ready for a fresh start this week. After all the drama last weekend with the Orlando Massacre, it was pretty difficult for me to stay focused. Really, 'Tis a great reminder to breathe and enjoy life more, but sometimes it just SUCKS to not be happy.... To have wanted to do one thing, but get stuck spending your time on something else...

#tobeasvagueaspossible

Something that always helps me get through these difficult times, is music. And so [ before I leave for work ] I will leave you with the music that got me through last week. 'Tis is a treble heavy mix of some songs that are sure to get you out of a funk. 

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Dealing with Grief

TBH, this week has been rough [ for a lot of reasons ]. Thankfully, there has been so many beautiful last minute events that have come together to celebrate love and acceptance. And truly, I am in awe of the support the LGBTQQAA+ community has shown each other. πŸ’™βœ¨πŸ™ŒπŸ»πŸ‘±πŸ»

That being said...

One has to ask them-self: Why doesn't this happen all the time?

Why do people always sing and support each other AFTER something bad happens. πŸ’‘βœ¨πŸ€”

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Sick Day. : Easter Edition

I woke up this morning feeling even more congested and runny [ because yes, apparently you can be both... ] than last night. So, I'm currently enjoying some soup and sudafed as I try not to let myself do too much work.... I just finished editing a video timelapse of the ANTM recreation I produced, and now for some reason I'm feeling very tempted to clean my apartment a little, but kind of feel like crafting sounds like fun...

Because yes, this is what I do on sick days...

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Thank Goodness #ANTMisBack

OMG, Did you see?! Vh1 has finally announced that they are casting for the newest season of America's Next Top Model! And Naturally, I applied. βœ¨πŸ™†

I remember in middle school, my friend Emily and I would run home to catch the show every week and talk for hours trying to think of new ways to approach each challenge. [ Which of course was always followed by an impromptu photoshoot. ] I've always known that I would be perfect for the show. In fact, I applied for ANTM Cycle 20, and even though I didn't make the cut the first time, I was lucky enough to receive an email encouraging me to apply again the next year [ assuming everyone didn't get that email… ] though little did I know, the following year was when I realized that I had a 5 millimeter hole in my femur... πŸ™Š

[ Oh Right, that happened... ]

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Highs and Lows.

I mean, something must be in retrograde right now, because I just feel as though everything is super difficult to accomplish. For instance, when I was doing the laundry last night it just haddd to be when my building's hot water heater was out of order. So, I literally had to do some of the wash twice. And then later, I made that same mistake with the dishes... ... it's hard not to get frustrated.

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Oh, Hello Love.

The party? The Hello Mr. Valentine's Day soirΓ©e titled:  Hello Love.

The venue? Verboten [ which literally just kept reminding me of Rasputent from Anastasia, so clearly we went home and netflix and chilled to that afterwards... ]: A warehouse style space complete with a giant disco ball in the center of the dance floor, and of course, an instagram-worthy photo booth area with an epic designed floral display by Keeping up with the Putnams.

The evening? Amazeballs. β£

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You Better Work, 2016

It has been wayyyy too long since my last [confession] and I'm happy to say that it has been a busy week, and I'm inspired to keep things going. I mean, if BeyoncΓ© can fall in the Super Bowl anything can happen, Right? 

Right.

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My Thoughts on GREASE: LIVE!

In mean really, in my opinion, Grease is a really difficult show to do ( and I should know, because I played Doody in Middle School 😝]. After an opening number like Summer Lovin' where it's nearly impossible to not sing along, how are you evvvver supposed to keep an audience entertained for three more hours??

And you know what I think?

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A Happy Friday

Lately, I've been having trouble getting started ( which you'll read more about later... ) and am often faced with becoming super energized and creative at ohhhh around midnight or so (go figure). So, I've just decided to go with it. I mean, if I'm having trouble sleeping because I have a melody for a song stuck in my head, shouldn't I just get up and write the dang song?!

Exactly.

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One Year Surgiversary

Today marks a pretty important day that I truly cannot believe is already upon us:  Today ( January 13th ) marks the

one year anniversary!

of my Knee Surgery. So, since it's the question that EVERYONE feels the need to ask me: "You're like all better now, right?" No. Not at all. 

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OH Hello 2016...

To be Honest, I feel like I have a lot of thoughts going on in my head right now... with today being the first Monday of 2016, it feels as if I must start things off to a good start or it'll knock the whole year off kilter... because you know, that's how life works right? [ Oh wait... ]

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New Years Resolutions

Happily back in New York just in time to celebrate New Years with some besties, I am definitely feeling re-energized and ready to go into 2016 at full force. 

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Coffee Thoughts

Well I just completely burned my tongue on my Starbucks reward beverage ( today, a triple tall 1 pump toffee nut soy latte. obvi with a sprinkle of cinnamon ) … and I am just realizing I forgot headphones... Awesome.

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